Tomorrow, I start a course of chemotherapy at The Beatson Centre, in Glasgow.
Am I scared? You bet - well, who wouldn't be! I guess its that fear of the unknown! Is my hair gonna fall out? I am gonna be constantly feeling sick? Will it work? All these thoughts, and many more, running around in my head all day (and during the night - hence the sleepless nights).
I am trying to keep a positive attitude but its so hard!
Its now over 6 weeks since I had the hysterectomy and I've had no problem with that thankfully. No nausea, no pain, the wound has healed well so that I'm hoping that I have as much good luck with the chemo!!
However, my creative jewellery mojo has disappeared so its been a long 6 weeks - stuck at home with nothing to do! I've read at least 3 books; countless magazines passed on to me by thoughtful neighbours and chrocheted 3 scarves to wear!! I have also re-arranged the furniture many times (in my head) and planned the garden bedding scheme for the summer!!!!
Oh well, guess I better get my bag packed for the ovrnight stay in the hospital! I just hope that the vegetarian option is better there than at the last hospital!!!